Simplicity

I've been reading a couple of books lately - Celebration of Discipline and Miserly Moms - Living on One Income in a Two Income Economy. Between the two I am about ready to plow my very large front yard and start a farm. Ridiculous I know and VERY impractical for a woman who kills cacti - that's right, multiple cactus I have killed, three to be exact. Farming is an insane idea for me but at the same time I want to work outdoors and with my hands and grow my own food. My husband is very against this as he knows he will be stuck with the weeding until Matthew is old enough to do it. I argue that I'll do it but in my heart I have a sneaking suspicion that he is right. I always have these grand ideas and lofty goals but reality tends to fall very short of the mark. Truth be told, I'm lazy. Sad but true. I want to do these things but I have very little self-discipline or self-control. I keep saying that if I could just quit my job and stay home with Matthew that I would be able to accomplish all these things like gardening or cooking more or teaching my son but honestly if I can't find the time or energy to do any of it now then I won't be able to if I stay home. I need to get focused and simplify my life so I have energy for things. I also need to be more focused on God so my heart and soul are at peace for me to accomplish more. I'm going to try to start a daily quiet time starting today. I'll let you know how it goes.